Mt. Everest & Climbing Hurdles

Mt. Everest & Climbing Hurdles

The following is a blog post I wrote a little over 7 months ago under great distress, but never posted.  Looking back at where we were when I wrote this compared to where we are now (at a different place emotionally, close to half way there (yay!) with more support raising experience & many presentations later), I was encouraged to see how God has fortified me.  So, I figured maybe it would inspire you as you climb your own mountains.  Here it goes…

We are in full support raising mode and it’s hard.  When I consider the numbers, the amount of support raising that we need to accomplish, I see steep climbs, long ascents, and shallow, sharp painful breaths ahead.  I’m staring at Mt. Everest.  It is daunting, exhausting, and if I wasn’t rock solid in our calling it would be so easy to say, “Sorry God. When I look up at that mountain You’ve asked us to traverse it makes me beyond stressed. My chest is tight,  my muscles scream in pain from the short climb already and we’re not even to Base Camp 1. I’m not sleeping well in that stupid little tent on the cliff, I’m cold cuz I didn’t bring the right gear – always unprepared, I’m freaked out about tomorrow cuz the weather is supposed to be worse, my butt hurts cuz my mat is not thick enough and I bought the -10 degree sleeping bag, instead of the -40 so I’m cold. No, I’m freezing and to boot I forgot my Hotties hand warmers. Life bites.”  Oh my gosh, it is so easy to pitch a fit when nothing seems to be going right. I want to just ball my hands up till my nails leave imprints in my palms, sit on the couch, cry hot, ugly tears and yell, “This is IMPOSSIBLE!!!”  But, the Lord reminds me in His calm, gentle manner as I sit there pathetically dejected, “Nothing…(I feel a stillness and sensation of peace) absolutely nothing…(more peace) is impossible with Me (big sigh).”  There is His loving kick in the pants.  He says, “Ya that mountain is massive, you’re right, but I’m here to help you climb. Remember when you yelled out, ‘My foot is slipping!” my love supported you? (Psalm 94:18)   So when you start to panic and anxiety robs you of your trust in Me, remember I (emphasized capital I) will support you in EVERY way.   I will give you the tools you need to scale the mountain. Remember I told you not to worry about tomorrow because tomorrow will worry about itself? (Matt. 6:34)  I calmed the raging seas, don’t you think I can take care of a blinding blizzard? Don’t fret about a future meeting I’ve appointed for you or a presentation that you don’t quite feel prepared for. I’ve got your back.  Remember, I told my disciples not to take along any gold or silver or copper in their belts; take no bag for the journey, or extra tunic, or sandals or a staff; for the worker is worth his keep?  Well, my promise is that I will provide for all of your needs. Your tent may be small, but in this journey I’ll give you rest and an extra bedroll.  Since you can’t take your own financial provisions, I will provide the finances for the ministry I’ve called you to. You may feel unprepared, but remember, I took ordinary men that had a heart to serve and I prepared them. Keep this too in mind as you climb, part of your frustration may come from your feelings of unworthiness.  Yes, you are not a theologian, but you are who I made you to be.  You are my worker and I am telling you, you ARE worth your keep. One more word of advice, your muscles may be tired, but I made Motrin to help with that. You’ve got some. Take it. Oh and ya know what, you didn’t ask for these, but they are my gift to you – here are some Hotties. I love you.”

“When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” (Ps. 94:19)

2 Comments

  1. What a great post. I love that you are sharing your heart. It makes others remember that the Lord calls the weak to make strong and we are all weak! Love you guys.

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  2. That is beautifully written, Jenn!

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